10-15-2018, 10:17 AM
I got cheated on this past weekend.
The signs were there for weeks but I chose to ignore them. I didn't wanna be possessive and crazy. I kept them in but it was like having a fungal infection on my anus... constantly itching and hard to not think about.
Finally, I walked into a bar and saw her kissing her ex. I didn't say or do anything. There wasn't anything I needed to hear or say or do.
I was pissed that she was doing it in public, in a bar where many of my friends go to (including me). It was as if she was trying to get caught.
But, I am not that sad. I'm relieved because that itch is gone. I'm not constantly wondering why she lied about going to the gym for 3 and a half hours that one day, or whatever.
I didn't get emotional much after that. Backstory for what's coming: she has a 5-year old niece who I often chat with (we send each other selfie videos). So, I knew I had to break up with this 5-year-old girl also now... I apologized to her mom (my girl's sister) and said I won't be able to continue the video messages to her kid... and told her what had happened. I got a video response: it was the little girl saying, "I know you're sad right now, but I want you to know that you can be happy again. Just smile!" and then she did a big smile and the video cut. Tears just flowed
That was that.
On to the next one.
The signs were there for weeks but I chose to ignore them. I didn't wanna be possessive and crazy. I kept them in but it was like having a fungal infection on my anus... constantly itching and hard to not think about.
Finally, I walked into a bar and saw her kissing her ex. I didn't say or do anything. There wasn't anything I needed to hear or say or do.
I was pissed that she was doing it in public, in a bar where many of my friends go to (including me). It was as if she was trying to get caught.
But, I am not that sad. I'm relieved because that itch is gone. I'm not constantly wondering why she lied about going to the gym for 3 and a half hours that one day, or whatever.
I didn't get emotional much after that. Backstory for what's coming: she has a 5-year old niece who I often chat with (we send each other selfie videos). So, I knew I had to break up with this 5-year-old girl also now... I apologized to her mom (my girl's sister) and said I won't be able to continue the video messages to her kid... and told her what had happened. I got a video response: it was the little girl saying, "I know you're sad right now, but I want you to know that you can be happy again. Just smile!" and then she did a big smile and the video cut. Tears just flowed
That was that.
On to the next one.
